Future Endeavours

Dear Diary,

So this is how I want it all to be, someday and I am hoping it will begin one day soon. The sooner the better honestly, but I know it all has to start with nobody else but me. It must come from within as well as from without. I must push myself to be all that I want to be and do all that I must do in order to achieve all that I am setting out to. How hard could it really be? I mean it all has been done before. I will not be the first nor the last one to set out on this self-improvement journey. There is a quote that i like very much, spoken by a woman named Maria Robinson and it goes something like this; "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." So here I go, I am about to start something new, and this is all that I want to do. First and foremost, I must start to be more optimistic and have more faith in myself and know that those around me truly do love me and want what is best for me. I need to say that I love myself for who I am and accept all the good along with the bad because no one is perfect and that it is alright. I envision myself finishing undergraduate school at Queens College and finishing it with a 3.0 grade point average or higher with a major in English and a minor in Media Studies. Regarding this topic of school, I hope that I can become more studious and strive to do better academically so that I can be proud of myself. Then I would love to go to graduate school either at Adelphi, Hofstra or maybe even Columbia University someday. I know that I am aiming qiute high but I also know that if I really want it and set my mind up to work hard and do it, I can get there without a problem. So this is exactly what I shall do. From this day forward, I will put more effort into my schoolwork and study more than ever, because like my parents always remind me, it is not like I have children to take care of, or a job that I need to be at. I have all the time in the world to dedicate towards my future. Speaking of future, my main goal is to be successful, and I do not only mean wealthy. I dream of being successful in every sense of the word. Let me explain myself. Yes, I want to be rich and have a lot of money to splurge on material goods and things along those lines, but I want to work hard and honestly for it. I want to be famous as well, and I do not mean famous as you might be thinking in the Hollywood way. I mean, yes I do mean it in that sense too, but I am aware of the fact that that is quite impossible. But what is possible is to be famous in my own little way at for example, school or work and with my friends and family. Another way I wish to be successful in is, as shallow as this truly is, to be very beautiful. Beautiful both inside and out. Beautiful in the attractive sense as well as in the sweet sense too. All in all, I would love to be admired by others for all that I am but of course, mainly loved by me. On another note, knowing how music is my number one love of all time and for all time, I dream of working in the music field, whether it be writing songs and having someone famous at the time sing it, or working on the radio. As for going in another direction, yet still sticking to the media field, I would like to work for a magazine such as Glamour, or for a catalogue such as Victoria's Secret creating slogans for their wonderful issues. I know I can do anything, after all this is the land of all opportunities and my parents did bring me here from an early age so I could dream the American Dream as well as making it come true. One more thing that I could think of that I hope never happens. Knowing how I love to eat, healthy as well as junk food, and I somehow manage to stay slim, is a miracle in my eyes and I am very thankful for that. My main concern though is, how long will and can this last, in all reality? What if I become obese with all of my habits? It was just in the news yesterday that obesity takes years off your life. Oh boy, is all I have to say to that. Anyways, diary, wish me luck, please in all of my new endeavours.

Yours truly,

Anda